I HAD MADE UP MY MIND

Thank you. You made me realize many things. Realize that i'm really that useless, stupid, childish, immature. I got the answer for my questions, so i think there is no more issues between us. If i got think of any, then i will tell you,k? I felt very happy. Finally i can talk to you again. Can joke with you, laugh with you. Do you know how much i miss it?^_^.. I will put everything in my heart and mind. I will change. Change from NOBODY to SOMEBODY. I bet you heard this before,right?haha.. I'm serious about it. I want to achieve my dreams. I want to be with you again. Want to love you again. Want to protect you. Want to be the person that support you in everything you do. Want to be much better than before. Want to make you happy. Want your tears drop down because of i made you happy, not because of i made you sad. Want to bring you go all around the world. Want you to be the luckiest person ever in this world. These are my dreams. It's all about you. So in order to achieve it, I hope you're the one that will always beside me to charge me up when i'm feeling down. I want you to lead me. I want to share everything with you. No matter how difficult it is, i will never give up again. I also hope that we can have our first meeting a.s.a.p so that i can start changing my life.

I wish to attend all the event, but sometimes i'm lazy for it,because need to wear formal. I know it is a must as we look more professional wearing formal. But i still haven't suit with that kind of life. I still not feeling comfortable with it although i felt that wearing formal attire make me look smarter than wearing casual,haha. Give me some time to adapt with it. You must know that my attire for my daily routine is sport attire, so if suddenly want me to wear formal, i need some little time to get used of it. Sometimes i will back to my childish and playful attitude. So i hope you will tell me nicely if i did something i'm not suppose to do. Only you know how to control me. About the basic camp, i will think of it. I hope if i go, you're there too. Next V-CON, i will put in my schedule too, but can't promise anything yet. Cause i scare i will have tournament during that time.

Sometimes when you see me in silence, means i don't want to talk, i got nothing to talk or maybe i'm boring. I could be very very passive or very very active. It depends on what situation i'm in. When you see me silence, it means i'm in my passive mode. If you see me talk and laugh, that time i'm in active mode. So i hope you could see when is my passive time, and when is my active time.

You was my greatest inspirations. I had made up my mind. Will work hard to achieve all my dreams. Hope you will be looking at me during this period.