8TH OF JULY

8th of July...

It should be our 11 months anniversary if we didn't broke up. I don't know you still care about this date or not, but for me it still very important although we are not couple anymore. Last sunday (5th of july) is the 11 months we know each other. Don't know you still remember how we get to know each other. There are so many things that i wanna tell you, but i know you are not interested to hear it. A day without your call, your message, your laughter and everything about you was like living in an empty world. I missed the time when we talk on the phone, missed the time i called you and ask what should i eat, missed the time you worry about me when im hurt / sick, missed the time you feed me eat medicine, miss to hug you, miss to walk at the beach while holding your hand, missed the time we went out together, missed the moment i gave you that very special things in SG. Wang, missed the time we celebrate some special occasions together and i missed everything that we had gone through together.

Eventhough you had rejected me, it won't stop me from loving you. I'll wait for you. Say me crazy, say me stubborn, say me stupid, just say me whatever you want, it doesn't matter. Because this is my decision. I choose to be stupid, to be crazy, to be blind, to be everything because I LOVE YOU. There is only you in my heart. Thanks for hurting me so badly, coz it teach me a lot of things. Teach me the meaning of LOVE, APPRECIATION, DETERMINATION and so on. Im trying to change myself for a better life, and of cause is because of you too although i know you might not come back to me no matter how i change. I'm sorry for hurting you too. I know i'm not as good as your current lover ( I know who is that person ). But i hope you will appreciate those things that i had done for you.

P/S : Im sorry for breaking my promise. I don't know how to tell you my feeling, so blog is the only ways for me to tell you everything. Although it was quite late, but at least i'll feel better after writing it down.